Monsters Under My Bed 12-24-13

There is a fear
An absolute looming terror
Creating a shadow over my head

It sits like the monster under my bed
Its eyes yellow and slitted sneaking a peak at me every now and then
Pointy teeth threatening to show themselves

I quickly jump into my bed
My feet disappearing over the edge of the covers
Diving under the toasty sheets with the yellow glow of my lamp filtering through

What am I scared?
The bond breaking
What bond?
That bond that was formed exactly 8 months ago
The one which caused all the tears and the sadness 365 days ago.
What do you fear will happen?
That we will scatter and change too much
That when we see each other once again we will be strangers.
That we will only be held together by the strings of past memories.

But then I think as I snuggle under the quilt
Those strings of memory have to hold us together
The peals of laughter and the sweet melody of the songs that speak to you

Everything MUST hold us together.
It must.
It has to.
I hope.

Holiday Cheer

You got me! I use Instagram and might over filter my images but gimme a break. I follow more animals be they pigs, cats, hedgehogs, dogs, bunnies, or sugar gliders. So here's some of my holidays and pre-holiday studying. :)

Time time time 12-20-13

Whoa it's been a while! My life has been like a bunch of rabbit hops. I do things in spurts. Like this week for instance. All I did was eat sleep and most of all study. The calendar year for my classes was super whacked this year due to the absolute awesomeness of Thanksgiving coming late and coinciding with the beginning of Hanukkah. I heard on NPR that the  this happened every thousand and whatever years, BUT according to our Jewish friends it happens every 100 some years so now I'm not sure what to believe. Ahhh well.

In recenter news I finished both my calculus exam and my AP Physics C exams this week. I feel as though a huge weight has lifted off of my shoulders despite the fact that I still have my honors physics test. Dinner and the evening festivities after made it all worth it.

Can I stop and express my absolute frustration with the internet? I had a really long post written out and it turns out that Blogger decided not to save it! :O What a drag. Anyways, as I was saying. The dinner was celebratory fried rice and weird rice ball with cheese thingies form the holiday section of ALDI. What a typical Bernard dinner conglomeration. Welcome to the best dinner table on the planet. Afterwards Yi-Shan and I filled the kitchen with the most wonderful smells of steaming baozi aka bao buns, one of Chinese cuisines best inventions. I loved the excuse of a cultural school project for Yi-Shan's middle school class but was terribly disappointed when I heard that all 27 had to go to school and as it turned out the class loved them and none of them returned in the huge pan. While the thin wisps of steam came snaking out of the bamboo steamer basket I proceeded to hang a dogged and might a add a wee bit racked door garland and then on to the scariest moment off Christmas.... the lights! I swear, if you are ever need of strengthening your knot untying skills Christmas lights should be your go to! In top of the tangles themselves there also the problem of how gently you can undo them. Pull to hard or drop them on the ground from too high up and poof half of them come on... or the opposite. you plug the darn thing into the wall and half the string just doesn't work. What will you do now since the ones that are out are in the middle of the string? Crisis! And then whilst furiously untangling you drop them a bit to much or jiggle things too much poof.... they come back one. I call this the: do-you-risk-putting-the-lights-on-the-tree-and-have-half-of-them-go-out-dilemma. Thankfully our tree is rather stubbly and short so and looks a bit like it has antlers so we lucked out this year with the lights dilemma. 

And last bit of excitement for the night was the great undertaking of pulling all the wrapping paper and ornaments down from the attic. Gifts, I love giving them. Of course they are lovely to receive of course, but I love giving them better. I am so much more comfortable trying to figure out what to give people than being asked "what do you want for Christmas?" and when my response is "I dunno....." frustrates them I laugh. Isn't it better that I'm not asking for some crazy expensive contraption that I may or may not use a half dozen times? The doors are wide open! Home made things or inside joke gifts are the best *wink wink* and not to mention mean a ton more. So Merry Christmas or happy holidays to you! Kickback and relax and down some hot coco or eggnog if that's your thing.