Monsters Under My Bed 12-24-13

There is a fear
An absolute looming terror
Creating a shadow over my head

It sits like the monster under my bed
Its eyes yellow and slitted sneaking a peak at me every now and then
Pointy teeth threatening to show themselves

I quickly jump into my bed
My feet disappearing over the edge of the covers
Diving under the toasty sheets with the yellow glow of my lamp filtering through

What am I scared?
The bond breaking
What bond?
That bond that was formed exactly 8 months ago
The one which caused all the tears and the sadness 365 days ago.
What do you fear will happen?
That we will scatter and change too much
That when we see each other once again we will be strangers.
That we will only be held together by the strings of past memories.

But then I think as I snuggle under the quilt
Those strings of memory have to hold us together
The peals of laughter and the sweet melody of the songs that speak to you

Everything MUST hold us together.
It must.
It has to.
I hope.

Holiday Cheer

You got me! I use Instagram and might over filter my images but gimme a break. I follow more animals be they pigs, cats, hedgehogs, dogs, bunnies, or sugar gliders. So here's some of my holidays and pre-holiday studying. :)

Time time time 12-20-13

Whoa it's been a while! My life has been like a bunch of rabbit hops. I do things in spurts. Like this week for instance. All I did was eat sleep and most of all study. The calendar year for my classes was super whacked this year due to the absolute awesomeness of Thanksgiving coming late and coinciding with the beginning of Hanukkah. I heard on NPR that the  this happened every thousand and whatever years, BUT according to our Jewish friends it happens every 100 some years so now I'm not sure what to believe. Ahhh well.

In recenter news I finished both my calculus exam and my AP Physics C exams this week. I feel as though a huge weight has lifted off of my shoulders despite the fact that I still have my honors physics test. Dinner and the evening festivities after made it all worth it.

Can I stop and express my absolute frustration with the internet? I had a really long post written out and it turns out that Blogger decided not to save it! :O What a drag. Anyways, as I was saying. The dinner was celebratory fried rice and weird rice ball with cheese thingies form the holiday section of ALDI. What a typical Bernard dinner conglomeration. Welcome to the best dinner table on the planet. Afterwards Yi-Shan and I filled the kitchen with the most wonderful smells of steaming baozi aka bao buns, one of Chinese cuisines best inventions. I loved the excuse of a cultural school project for Yi-Shan's middle school class but was terribly disappointed when I heard that all 27 had to go to school and as it turned out the class loved them and none of them returned in the huge pan. While the thin wisps of steam came snaking out of the bamboo steamer basket I proceeded to hang a dogged and might a add a wee bit racked door garland and then on to the scariest moment off Christmas.... the lights! I swear, if you are ever need of strengthening your knot untying skills Christmas lights should be your go to! In top of the tangles themselves there also the problem of how gently you can undo them. Pull to hard or drop them on the ground from too high up and poof half of them come on... or the opposite. you plug the darn thing into the wall and half the string just doesn't work. What will you do now since the ones that are out are in the middle of the string? Crisis! And then whilst furiously untangling you drop them a bit to much or jiggle things too much poof.... they come back one. I call this the: do-you-risk-putting-the-lights-on-the-tree-and-have-half-of-them-go-out-dilemma. Thankfully our tree is rather stubbly and short so and looks a bit like it has antlers so we lucked out this year with the lights dilemma. 

And last bit of excitement for the night was the great undertaking of pulling all the wrapping paper and ornaments down from the attic. Gifts, I love giving them. Of course they are lovely to receive of course, but I love giving them better. I am so much more comfortable trying to figure out what to give people than being asked "what do you want for Christmas?" and when my response is "I dunno....." frustrates them I laugh. Isn't it better that I'm not asking for some crazy expensive contraption that I may or may not use a half dozen times? The doors are wide open! Home made things or inside joke gifts are the best *wink wink* and not to mention mean a ton more. So Merry Christmas or happy holidays to you! Kickback and relax and down some hot coco or eggnog if that's your thing. 

Catching Fire 11-22-13

Going to see this tonight! Get ready to see some really weird fire CGI people!Are you team Peeta-bread or team Gale? Apparently that's the great debate on tumblr right now.....

The funniest thing that happened in relation to this whole ordeal that will happen tonight: I was asked whether I was sure I had bought the tickets for the right day because an email had showed up asking us if we had enjoyed the movie already! Perhaps I will become a timelord and choose to travel back to see the movie again? Honestly, I'm WAY more excited for the 50th anniversary of Dr. Who! "The Day of the Doctor" comes out tomorrow!

The Secret of the Sea - Henry Wadsworth Longfellow 11-22-13

Ah! what pleasant visions haunt me
   As I gaze upon the sea!
All the old romantic legends,
   All my dreams, come back to me.

Sails of silk and ropes of sandal,
   Such as gleam in ancient lore;
And the singing of the sailors,
   And the answer from the shore!

Most of all, the Spanish ballad
   Haunts me oft, and tarries long,
Of the noble Count Arnaldos
   And the sailor's mystic song.

Like the long waves on a sea-beach,
   Where the sand as silver shines,
With a soft, monotonous cadence,
   Flow its unrhymed lyric lines:--

Telling how the Count Arnaldos,
   With his hawk upon his hand,
Saw a fair and stately galley,
   Steering onward to the land;--

How he heard the ancient helmsman
   Chant a song so wild and clear,
That the sailing sea-bird slowly
   Poised upon the mast to hear,

Till his soul was full of longing,
   And he cried, with impulse strong,--
"Helmsman! for the love of heaven,
   Teach me, too, that wondrous song!"

"Wouldst thou,"--so the helmsman answered,
   "Learn the secret of the sea?
Only those who brave its dangers
   Comprehend its mystery!"

In each sail that skims the horizon,
   In each landward-blowing breeze,
I behold that stately galley,
   Hear those mournful melodies;

Till my soul is full of longing
   For the secret of the sea,
And the heart of the great ocean
   Sends a thrilling pulse through me.

Buddha in a Nalgene 11-22-13

Recently I have been rather sick with a rattling cough and a bit of a fever, so instead of paying money to go to the doctor for her to tell me that I needed to sleep and drink lots of water Mama bought be come really tasty tea. It is an echinaea blend made by Yogi. You might not think that this matters very much but every morning as I pour the streaming tea kettle's contents into my Nalgene in an effort to drink more fluids and to strengthen my immune system I get a little Buddhist thought. They seem very straight forward sometimes like, "Be happy", "I am beautiful, I am bountiful, I am blissful", "Live to share", and "Love your soul." They all seem very yoga-ish giving me zen advice, but it's really good advice when you think about it. 

The two that caught my eye today were the two that I opened today to get my daily does of tea. They are the ones in the picture: "Live to share" and "Love your soul." The first referenced something that I am so excited to be doing on Monday! I'm rescuing two, that's right two more dogs! The story is a bit more complicated that just getting an itch to rescue two older dogs. Our good family friend and handy man- Mark Marshall's house burnt down while he was down at his other house at the lake and when the police and firemen arrived they got the dogs out but sent them to the pound. Mark works in Atlanta and so has lived in the Atlanta house while he was working on jobs for his Atlanta clients and so does not live at the lake very much even though that's where he calls home. Because of this rather odd situation he can't just send the dogs down to the lake house because he's never there! The whole fire incident happened on Monday the 18th and now it's barely the 22nd and the pound already told him that the dogs would be put down at the end of the week! Luckily he got a 3 day extension and is going to get them on Monday and then bring them to our house. We suspect that because the county knows that they have an owner and that they are both eight, getting up there in age for their sizes they made the date so soon. Cruelty is what I call it. They are such cuties:

I'm so happy I get to save two lives over the Thanksgiving break (and for the foreseeable future). I'm so glad that Mark will be able to take his dogs back instead of having to hear that they had been put down. :')

The second thing the tag with the loving of your soul. I'll come back and probably ramble more about this, but the big question is this: how can you love your soul if you don't know how to define your soul? 

Constitution Lakes Clean Up 11/11/13

Early mornings are a 50/50 love hate thing for me. Yesterday, that would be 11/9/13 I conducted a clean up at Constitution Lakes as my final part of my Ocean for Life Action Plan. I had so much fun despite a few rough patches and a couple complications. The first thing that I started off with was developing a PowerPoint that outlined how we, as human beings, are connected to the ocean in all the things that we do and about my experiences in the OFL program. I then reached out to my sister's school, Atlanta Neighborhood Charter Middle School, in the hopes of presenting to a few science classes. I got such a positive response to my presentation that I ended up presenting to the entire 6th grade and 7th grade! That means that I talked to over 300 kids! During the presentation, the kids not only learned about watersheds and how we are interconnected to the ocean, but also got to talk to the wonderful Ayyad El-Masri who was also a alum from the OFL program, a dear friend, and a proud citizen of Lebanon. Check out this scream shot:

Ayyad talking to the 6th grade class at Atlanta Neighborhood Charter Middle School.

I loved seeing how much the kids genuinely enjoyed talking to me about what they knew about the ocean and the different conservation efforts they had been part of. There was a girl who came up to me at the very end of one of my 6th grade classes who asked me for my autograph. She told me: "I only ask for autographs from people who seem to really care about what they are talking about. Oh, and because you didn't make me bored!" You have no idea how proud I was to hear this. Initially I thought it was a very childish, almost silly thing to say to me. How was I every going to be a celebrity of the ocean? Only people like Jean-Micheal Cousteau and his dad were celebrities. But then I realized how, very un-Ocean for Life Alum I was being. After all, isn't one of the things that we learned/are teaching is that everyone who becomes involved and educated about the threats that the ocean faces becomes a hero of the environment? The environmental stewards of the world are heroes just like Superman and Batman. We might not wear capes and masks but instead wear the superhero uniform of a jeans and a t-shirt.

After my time at  the middle school I had the happy chance to present with one of my fellow Ocean for Life Alum Justin Cucchi (who also happens to live in Atlanta) at his school, Henry W. Grady High School, to the Earth Club.

After the Earth Club I finished off my OFL Action Plan with a clean-up at Constitution Lakes. I realized that one of the many problems that the environment suffers is that many people don't realize that they can get out and help close to home. All the major rivers on the edges of Atlanta are popular places to hold clean up where lots of people go canoeing, kayaking, mountain biking, and camping. The bigger problem is that not a lot of people are aware of their local, and often hidden wildlife areas. This in turn means that only a special few know about the area which means that it can be taken advantage of an turned into a secret landfill. In Atlanta, it costs to take certain things to a dump, so it's easier to sneak off to a unknown area and dump it there. Only problem is that Constitution Lakes is one of those places. It will take years for us to raise the amount of awareness that the Chattahoochee river has, but every little clean up and visit makes a difference.

Constitution Lakes is a Dekalb County park only 15 minutes away from my house that is sandwiched in between two truck stops. You'd think that it would be loud and noisy but the only thing that you hear is the screaming of a train every now and then. I planned everything out with Joy Carter, the President of the Atlanta Audubon Society, a family friend, and a wonderful person overall and we held this awesome clean up. While we had very few people we got a ton done. We rolled 15 tires closer to the entrance of the park so that the country could pick them up (only 75 more to go!), picked up an entire truck bed worth of trash, and eradicated about 150 square feet privet. All of that in 3-4 hours! Check out the pictures form the clean up here:

Ready for action

Mirror Surface

Justin fishing out some of the first pieces of trash.

Early mornings are way too bright for pictures.

Setting Forth

Checking out the Pilliated Woodpecker across the water.

Casey dragging in some bottles. 

Violet and her dad Paul working on untangling fishing net. 

So close!

Joy trying to instruct us on something.....

Off to work we go!

Best not to wear your white shoes to the clean up, no matter how old. 

Casey, Paul, Susie, and Violet digging out some trash. 

While digging pieces of glass out of the ground we found a Marbled Salamander (Ambystoma opacum).

Taking a break for a little bit of history about Constitution Lakes. 

South River train trestle. 

The 90 tires that were pulled out of the river a month ago. 

A little bit of found art made by some of the friends of Constitution Lakes. 

Get it, springs? Bed springs? There is a lot of large pieces of trash such as beds that are too big to remove. It is more dangerous to disturb the surrounding area and risk destroying a habitat than it is to eradicate the trash. 

Constitution Lakes  was actually a brickwork area way back during the Civil War. I highly recommend you check it out in the Pulitzer Prize winning book "Slavery by Another Name" by a neighborhood acquaintance Dough Blackmon. 

Tons of people leave a little message or their name to make their little mark on the park on the left over pieces. 

My sister Yi-Shan left her mark too. 

To my dearest Maeve and Mattie, our A Capella group is engraved in brick!

The lakes also suffer from ATV abuse and motorcycles that rip through the ground illegally. 

Casey snapping a picture of the now, trash free patch. We were unable to reach of of the stuff that was floating further out in the water and will need to return later with a kayak or canoe to fish the rest out. 

All of the participants had a blast and are really inspired to do more. Violet and Paul who were from the charter school and are now really excited to invite their friends down to the park, participate in more clean ups, and enjoy all the birds that they were learning about. Justin and his mom were astounded by the hidden gems that were sitting right in front of them and Justin is excited to invite his Earth Club to another clean up. Joy was overjoyed that we got so much trash picked up. I was relieved and sad. I have been working hard on this project ever since I got home and by working on the project it somehow felt like I was more connected to the ocean more, but I know that by finishing one project does not at all mean that I will stop working to protect the ocean. I am just as close to the ocean as I was before I started the project only now I know that I am even more connected than I was before going through the OFL program. For now, I shall take a break from all the paperwork but never fear, I'll have something new cooked up sooner rather than later that will have me mucking through the local wetlands teaching more people about how we can help the ocean!